When an Unexpected Pregnancy Became My Turning Point ⸻
What began with fear gave my life meaning and purpose.
Before I found out I was pregnant, I was living in Goa.
Floating. Drifting. Telling myself I’d figure it out eventually.
But I never really did.
We were happy, in a way.
Life was unstructured and spontaneous — but something always felt unfinished.
Like I was running out of road without knowing where I was going.
And then — I got pregnant.
The first 24 hours were shock.
Panic.
Tears.
Silence.
And then came something else: clarity.
A quiet voice inside me whispered yes.
We were up for it. Not because we were ready —
but because we knew we wanted the experience of becoming.
Pregnancy became a mirror.
It made us ask bigger questions —
not just about parenting, but about who we wanted to be.
For me, the shift came slowly, then all at once.
I began wanting stability.
A sense of direction.
Something I could build, not just bounce between.
And then — out of nowhere — came Bangkok.
A job, a new home, a new phase.
We moved with an eight-month-old, and no safety net.
It was brutal and beautiful.
We had to grow up.
We had to show up.
And now, life has shape.
It has intention.
We are still learning, still stumbling — but building a home that feels like it was meant to be.
This pregnancy wasn’t in the plan.
But maybe the plan wasn’t big enough for the life we were meant to live.
Thank you for reading. I’m slowly writing more about softness, self-discovery, and becoming — at a pace that feels honest. If you’d like to read along, I’d love to have you here.
— Arushi